A Visit From Heaven ...

Tonight is Christmas Eve ... December 24th 2013 ...
The same like the other christmas eve ...
The spirit ...
The atmosphere ...
The anxiety ...

I always love christmas time ...
It's every christian celebration day from all over the whole world ...
Actually it's not about the tradition that must be keep ...
It's the moment that's worth it ....
Where you spend your time with peoples that means to you the most ...
Family & your loved ones ...
Everywhere you look ...
There's love ....

Where everyone call it joyful season  ...
For me ...
It always cope me "Hypophrenia" ...
It's a feeling of sadness seemingly without a cause ...
When everyone share it with their families ...
I'm just always sitting around the corner look at it with a bit envy ...
Always been like that ... From years to years ...
Nothing different with this year ...

Then suddenly out of no where ...
I see him ...
Walking towards me in a pink shirt ...
Looking at me with affection in his eyes ...
And hug me tight just like that ...
Very tight ...
I hug him back even tighter ...
No words spoken ... Just longing feeling poured ...
I feel warm ...
Someone loves me that much ...
I'm not alone ...

After a while ...
He just looking at me with smile in his face and dripping tears on his cheek ...
Letting go and walk away from me ...
"Please Don't Go" I Whispered ...
Trying my best to reach him with my hands ...
But then I woke up with tears ...
Still without him around ...
My hands only grasp the air ...
It breaks down my every wall ...
I'm tottering ...
I'm tremble ...
After 12 years ... He's visiting me again ...
On christmas eve ...
Just to let me know that I'm always loved ...

Merry Christmas Dad ...
Thank you for visiting me on this christmas eve ...
Miss you so much here on earth ...
But just for tonight ...
Let me please looking for the crowd ...
I just can't afford to be alone ...
Not tonight ...
Especially not after your visit ...
But I love you ...
I always will ...