Arrived safely at my rent room at 9 PM on this saturday night... Just got off work and confused what am I gonna do to spend this night ... Usually there's "someone" accompany me spend the time day by day ... This is my first saturday night without him... We're on the situation where you called it "temporary break" where on this situation each of you should rethinking all the things on your relationship all this time...But it also it's "my own time" to correct my self and found out what was goes wrong...
And I realize something..."A Relationship Without Trust Is Like A Car Wihout Gas, You Can Stay In It All You Want, But It Won't Goes Anywhere" That's exactly my situation right now... Already found that someone who doesn't care anything about my past and just want to be on my future no matter what...He knows how moody I can get and still see me as I was the perfect one on this world...
But what makes it complicated is "He Never Trust Me" His jealousy always makes me "squashed" T__T I know all his friends but he doesn't wanna even close to any of my friend (>_<) , always checking all my contact lists (phone,facebook,ym or any other social platform) and just like that delete one of my contact lists just with reason "I Don't Like Him", he even get jealous with my very best friend for 12th years until now...we always argue with the same topic which is his "blind jealousy" !! On the fourth years...suddenly I couldn't breath...because when I looked back...I'm realize I'm losing "half of me" pathetically and the worst is I'm letting it because I think I found that "special one" ...
Right now...once again...I've lost my track...
To be honest right now is the hardest decision for me, is it walk away or give it another try (after these 4 years) ??
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And I realize something..."A Relationship Without Trust Is Like A Car Wihout Gas, You Can Stay In It All You Want, But It Won't Goes Anywhere" That's exactly my situation right now... Already found that someone who doesn't care anything about my past and just want to be on my future no matter what...He knows how moody I can get and still see me as I was the perfect one on this world...
But what makes it complicated is "He Never Trust Me" His jealousy always makes me "squashed" T__T I know all his friends but he doesn't wanna even close to any of my friend (>_<) , always checking all my contact lists (phone,facebook,ym or any other social platform) and just like that delete one of my contact lists just with reason "I Don't Like Him", he even get jealous with my very best friend for 12th years until now...we always argue with the same topic which is his "blind jealousy" !! On the fourth years...suddenly I couldn't breath...because when I looked back...I'm realize I'm losing "half of me" pathetically and the worst is I'm letting it because I think I found that "special one" ...
To be honest right now is the hardest decision for me, is it walk away or give it another try (after these 4 years) ??
