Never Thought It Would Be This Hard ...

To all bloggers out there...
It's the 3rd week of November ...
Started to rain ever since from early November 1st ...
I think there's a reason why it's called November Rain ^^

I always love rainy season ...
Even if it's wet, freezing, and damp ...
And it could cause you some cold ...
But I just love it the way it is...
I always am ...
Love the smell of the rain when its pouring ...
Love the sound of the rain when its started to drop ...
Love the view when the rain touching the earth ...
The air could affect you with many different emotions ...
Some people like it ... Some people don't ...
Some people learn to dance with it ... Some people can't ...

Many emotions ...
The one that strikes me hard tonight is missing someone ...
Wondering how can I miss someone this much ...
Probably cause it's rain ...
Probably cause I'm doing nothing right now ...
Probably cause I don't hangout with my friends ...
Or probably it's Saturday Night, the night where it always cause you a blue feeling out of nowhere ...

Wondering is he alright ?
What does he do now ?
Is he happy ?
Is he warm enough right now ?
Is he safely home ?

The feeling ...
Just wanna hug him tight ...
Slide my fingers to his palm ...
Lean my head to his shoulder ...
Seeing his smile when he see me smile ...
Seeing his eyes while he's already stare at me ^^
Or even just sitting beside him and absolutely doing nothing ...

Never thought it would be this hard ...
Right now ... This moment ...
Absolutely can't doing anything but miss him (even I try my best not to) ...
How much I miss him ...
So much ... till it hurts ...